Today at church's Easter service, I have this question. It's in the middle of the Easter service. People are singing to the songs on the projector, the pastor is concentrating on his sermon, and people are busy doing what they are supposed be doing. For some reason, I feel alone. It's the feeling that you are in the middle of something, and you are confused why you are even there. What's the purpose of everything? (Suddenly I think of this word - mental lapse.) The Question: How do I make these relevant to me? Making things relevant takes time. Especially I'm in this secular world with many temptation. My pocket is full of many excuses to not attending church service, not to fellowship, and not keeping daily devotion. However, even those are not the core. At this moment, I need to make God relevant to my life. All these "christian" things are not going to make us closer to God unless we choose to seek him. People around me goes to church regularly but have no devotional life. Why? Choosing to seek him has its price. The second question comes to me today is how much do we need to sacrifice in order to follow him. When Jesus spoke about people hating their father, mothers, and even his own life, was he just kidding? Is there some truth to it? Peter asked Jesus about how many times should he forgive his brothers; would seven times enough? Jesus replied you should forgive seventy seven times. It's about following God's desire. In this case, Jesus is asking Peter to show forgiveness and mercy. That's just one area of life that Peter need to give up. Many times, a pastor would stand up and ask, what would you do if Jesus talk such and such way to you? Honestly most of the time I was still in my own dreamland during the sermon. But when Jesus ask me, he would ask the hardest question I would ever answer in my life. He would ask for something that I would never willing to let go. It's just like asking for Abraham for his son's life - how would Abraham ever have what it takes to give up his only son when he's everything that he value? But.. God also promised a new life after we cast away the old. The first step is the hardest.